One sunny vacation, coming right up!

Things are not going great in adoption-land right now. This is bringing me a great deal of stress. This is also bringing Marc a great deal of stress. Things are pretty stressful in our house right now. We can't really do anything to eliminate this stress. Except for booking a rediculously cheap, week-long vacation to Florida. Ah, just what the doctor ordered. Sunshine. Margaritas. Sandy beaches.

Gotta go - I only have about a month to get this bod ready for a bathing suit!

One sunny vacation, coming right up!

Things are not going great in adoption-land right now. This is bringing me a great deal of stress. This is also bringing Marc a great deal of stress. Things are pretty stressful in our house right now. We can't really do anything to eliminate this stress. Except for booking a rediculously cheap, week-long vacation to Florida. Ah, just what the doctor ordered. Sunshine. Margaritas. Sandy beaches.

Gotta go - I only have about a month to get this bod ready for a bathing suit!

I will show you love

Earlier this year I heard this song on Kristin's blog. It's a beautiful song that speaks to me in so many ways and lately I just can't get enough of it.

I will show you love

Earlier this year I heard this song on Kristin's blog. It's a beautiful song that speaks to me in so many ways and lately I just can't get enough of it.

Back to the quilt!

Thanks for all the comments, emails and phone calls of support! I'm feeling much better already- I think I was just having a bad week. For the most part, I think I have a really optimistic attitude about the whole timeline for this adoption. Most days, I think, "This is all happening for a reason, I will meet my daughter when I am supposed to." And usually, that works for me. On the days that it doesn't work, I usually only vent to Marc. Poor Marc. But anyways, onto better and brighter things... I have a good feeling that this week is going to be an exciting one for a couple of families in the adoption world. My fingers are crossed, as always.

I realized this weekend that I haven't been posting quilt squares lately. Marc and I went to get the last of our fabric yesterday and I think we officially have exactly 100 squares! (I'm going to do a final count tonight). This batch of quilt squares come from the ladies that my mom works with. I couldn't believe that they all took the time to participate in Poppy's quilt. It really meant a lot to me that they did!

Back to the quilt!

Thanks for all the comments, emails and phone calls of support! I'm feeling much better already- I think I was just having a bad week. For the most part, I think I have a really optimistic attitude about the whole timeline for this adoption. Most days, I think, "This is all happening for a reason, I will meet my daughter when I am supposed to." And usually, that works for me. On the days that it doesn't work, I usually only vent to Marc. Poor Marc. But anyways, onto better and brighter things... I have a good feeling that this week is going to be an exciting one for a couple of families in the adoption world. My fingers are crossed, as always.

I realized this weekend that I haven't been posting quilt squares lately. Marc and I went to get the last of our fabric yesterday and I think we officially have exactly 100 squares! (I'm going to do a final count tonight). This batch of quilt squares come from the ladies that my mom works with. I couldn't believe that they all took the time to participate in Poppy's quilt. It really meant a lot to me that they did!

Tissue, please.

I just had a really good cry over all of my frustrations with the lack of referrals and communication from my agency. Wow, I needed that. I haven't cried like that in such a long time. I had a meeting earlier this week with all of the librarians in my school district. We meet once a month and questions about whether or not I've heard any good news about the adoption are inevitable. Due to my lack of being able to share any good news, I have come to dread these monthly meetings. Here's how this meeting began...

them "So, Amanda, any good news?!"
me "Um, no." (try to force a smile)
them "Oh, that's ok, it'll happen soon enough."
them "So how many numbers have you moved up on the waiting list now?"
me "Um, none. "
them "What do you mean - none? How long has it been since you've moved up the list?"
me "Never. We've never moved up the list. We're still the same number we've always been. "
them "What?! Why haven't you moved up the list?"
me "I don't know."
them "Where are all the babies?"
me "I don't know."
them "But didn't you think you would be close to completing the adoption this Spring?"
me "Yep, we sure did."
them "You don't mind that we ask you about this, do you?"
me "No, not at all." (I love starting my day like this.)
silence
them "Ok, let's get this meeting started."
me (to myself) Look down at my lap, bite my lip, bite my lip. Don't cry. Don't cry Amanda!!!!

And this is why it is a good thing to have a good cry in the privacy of my own home, without my co-workers staring at me. Now don't get me wrong, I don't blame them for asking me about the adoption. I would do the same thing! But this is why, if I don't start to see some movement on the list and start hearing some really good news soon, I am going to lose it. I'm warning you people, this blog could start getting ugly.